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Name: Sarah
Birthday: 12/20/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Me?
I'm a 20 year old New Yorker
who just transplanted herself to Iowa.
Don't ask.
It just worked out.
I went to New Brunswick Bridal Institute
for two years and escaped.
Just kidding- I loved it there.
I lived in Boston for a year
and had some great times.
I'm studying to be an English teacher.
I worked at the Camp Northfield this summer. Hardcore times- as always.
I tend to be sarcastic and slightly intimidating- so I hear.
I don't get it. I'm 4'11''...
how on earth can I intimidate someone?
I don't go for the sunset and strolls on beaches- but if you really wanted to take me on one-
i'd probably go.
I thrive off of debates.
I tend to argue too much.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  rainbowjimmygurl
MSN: mochababe007@hotmail.com
Member Since:
2/6/2003
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| I'm told that I never post on this thing anymore.
It's true- i'm not going to argue that.
Facebook is much much better.
End of that story.
I'm sitting in Cafe Diem drinking a mango smoothie.
It's almost 50 degrees out.
Such a contrast from the last couple weeks of blizzards.
There's two old guys next to me playing scrabble talking about the meaning of life.
I want to interject.
The words they're choosing make me laugh.
They're building a story as they put them down.
It doesn't make any sense.
Life's not about me?
Did you know that?
It's not about you either.
In fact, we might as well be lighters at a Grateful Dead concert.
That's how miniscule we are.
In case you didn't know, that's really small.
It's kind of scary, but at the same time it's almost freeing.
We're in God's story.
We might get voted as best supporting actor, but we're still just supporting.
God doesn't need me.
He wants me.
Mindblowing.
"Be sure to wear some flowers in your hair,
If you come to San Francisco."
Life is not really worth writing about right now.
It's good, but not changing.
I start a new job on Tuesday.
I've been reading a lot lately.
I'm healed.
If that makes sense- good.
If not- too bad.
A year can change so much.
I've been writing a lot lately.
It's been refreshing.
But I find myself telling nothing to living people.
There's nothing left to tell.
Did it ever strike you that Jesus paid it all?
Not just some.
Or a little bit.
Or the future.
Or the past.
All.
It seems like life has always been this way.
Everything else seems like it was a million lifetimes ago.
Maybe i'm like a cat and it was.
Who knows.
Soli deo gloria.
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|  | Currently Watching
Hook
By Dustin Hoffman, Robin Williams, Julia Roberts, Bob Hoskins, Maggie Smith, Caroline Goodall, Charlie Korsmo, Amber Scott, Laurel Cronin, Phil Collins, Arthur Malet, Isaiah Robinson, Jasen Fisher, Dante Basco, Raushan Hammond, James Madio, Thomas Tulak, Alex Zuckerman, Ahmad Stoner, Bogdan Georghe
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I have my Mac..
I'm in love.
His name is Bjorn.
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John Tucker Must Die
By Jesse Metcalfe, Brittany Snow, Ashanti (II), Sophia Bush, Arielle Kebbel, Penn Badgley, Jenny McCarthy, Fatso-Fasano, Kevin McNulty, Patricia Drake, Jeffrey Ballard, Taylor Kitsch, Steve Bacic, Dean Wray, Jon Cuthbert, Aaron Dudley, Marc Menard, Dan Payne, Mercedes de la Zerda, Brendan Penny
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Such a long weekend.
Amy and Fritz are married.
Im finally a legitimate child.
Long story there.
Good times with my nuclear family.
It was the most beautiful wedding ever.
I didn't look so bad either;)
I'll post pictures soon.
Heading home tomorrow.
It's been a hong time coming.
Back to Iowa in like 9 days.
I'll update more later.
I love the commune...
And for now, I'm going to go watch John Tucker die.
Why it's so amusing I don't really know.
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| ok...
I need to vent for just a little bit.
Contentment is a funny issue.
It's not that i'm necessarily discontent-
But i'm not content either.
Does that make sense?
But i'm not apathetic about contentment.
I really don't understand my brain.
I see people making such huge steps in their life.
It's not like I haven't made some pretty big steps lately,
But compared to other people-
They all seem so small.
And yet so hard to grasp at the same time.
Part of me wants something monumental to happen.
And another part of me wants to say "screw it" to all of this and buy a van and drive around the country with no point or end in sight.
Is this normal?
I love being on my own and just living,
But part of me wonders if there might be something more than working a pretty crazy job, living paycheck to paycheck, and coming home everynight.
I shun the idea of relationships in my mind.
Outwardly I may think that I want them,
But in all reality- when it comes down to it,
They scare me senseless and intrigue me at the same time.
Am I supposed to understand this?
Am I missing a screw in my brain that everyone else has?
And that's another thing!
(To borrow a quote from my girls)
The one person in my life I found myself really wanting to be with, turned out not to be a prince.
It's funny how you built someone up so much in your brain, and they do what is only normal and show themselves to be an amphibian.
It breaks your heart-
But in all reality, they didn't break your heart.
You broke your own heart because of your false expectations for them not to be a frog.
I don't think I believe in this anymore.
Sweet fairy tale- but not reality.
The thrill of the chase in that area doesn't get to me.
I suppose I want to make a mature decision with someone to make a relationship a go.
Which is so completely different than the rest of my life at times.
Is it possible to grow up in that area and still be a restless gypsy?
Do gypsies get a house with a white picket fence too?
This makes no sense.
My apologies.
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| Hello Xanga world!
It's been a long time...again.
I have this great ambitions to write,
And then life gets in the way.
Things are going pretty well.
Busy as always.
Work is...going ok, I guess.
It's work.
I head home in 24 days!!
And then in 25 days I head to...
dun dun dun...
Canada!
I'm excited to see people.
I watched our Spring Banquet dvd this morning.
It made me laugh, and almost cry.
I was remembering the night before and the insanity that was.
Now- it's absolutely hysterical.
Amy's wedding is in something like 33 days.
Crazy, eh?
I'm still a little in shock, but it's starting to hit me.
I had a shower for her this past weekend.
It was good times, but I think it's when it all started to hit me.
It'll be a sweet wedding.
My dress is curdoroy.
Can't get much sweeter than that.
I miss people,
But I think i'm once again becoming apathetic.
It's not necessarily a bad thing.
It's a normal thing, I suppose.
Happy birthday, Benji.
I need to get to work.
But yay for a completely surface update!!
See ya'll soon.
Boston-December 22nd.
Word.
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